I'm Not

Another idea that is very rough, only partially explored but it's all I've got at the moment. Kind of self explanatory. It's about taking a job you never really wanted, making good money and having some good things come of it but being unhappy in how that has affected what you are allowed to do and say as well as the fear of losing what you have, or what you think you have, in order to reclaim something of what you were while retaining all of the good things in your life. Scary idea.

I'm Not

Looking back into the past I see that

I’m not living the life I imagined I would

I’m not the person I thought I’d be

Is that what happens when you don’t have a plan

When you’ve lost the drive you thought you had

In retrospect perhaps it never really was there

I daydreamed of a life of simplicity

Where I didn’t wear the uniform of society

No dress shirt and tie to strangle me

No position of authority to hold me down

No responsibility for the work of others

Now I’m not doing the things I think about

I’ve lost the sense of humor I once held

The wit and the spark of laughter held back

Limited by the rules of engagement

It’s not where I envisioned ending up

Can I ever make it back to that person

Wile retaining something of who I've become

Written and Published by Don Leach. May not be used without permission from the author.